growing up in style

growing up in style

tik tok – tik tok – tik

the sound that i hear all day

making me realize

my little princess growing

in style

trying all my shoes with heels

one pair after the other

the cupboard remains open

all my bags are out lying

she chooses as per her mood

which one to carry, which color to hold

my lipsticks are all vanishing

her face painted all over

bright colors on her cheeks

make her look only more beautiful

 

sometimes, i ask her to stop

at times i let her carry on

for the joy on her face

being styled up with all her mommy’s belongings

is something that’s priceless

way beyond the value

of the bags, lipsticks and shoes

every day, each moment i relish

the joy of having a daughter

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from a Woman to a Mother

from a Woman to a Mother

it was her, just her …. a woman

made love to a man for she was his wife

started to experience another life inside

her womb was a bit more sensitive now

her belly increased a little every moment

another heart started to beat inside her

she truly became a woman with two hearts

life grew inside each day every moment

one after the other all the senses came to life

inside her womb, the baby started to hear

she even cried at times she smiled

kicked a few goals sucked on her thumb

nine months advanced, it was time for the finale

anxiety & excitement both filled the woman

for the pain so intense, unable to bear

her muscles stretched and loosened with each contraction

o heaven!! come out fast, she told the baby

hours of pushing and screaming and heavy breathing

finally, she could hear her first cry

tears of excitement filled her eyes

even before placenta could relieve her frame

she had forgotten already the excruciating pain

in that moment she felt complete

held the tiny soul in her arms, watched her crying

she offered her breast to the tiny mouth

the baby first struggled then started to suckle

that’s when the woman became a mother

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Vanishing Mother’s Love?

Vanishing Mother’s Love?

When we think of a mother’s love, the first thing that comes to our mind is UNCONDITIONAL. It is indeed so. We all know that fact. But, today I am going to talk about how a mother could also feel trapped in motherhood. Is it inhuman to say so? Does that mean that she doesn’t love her children anymore? Would you know the answer after listening to the following real life story of a mother (a very close friend of mine)?


Hi, I am Sia and I am a mother of 2 children. I was working with one of the best organizations in the world and was doing very well with my role. I took a break from work to deliver my first child and couldn’t go back and join work because there was no one to take care of the baby and I was not comfortable to leave my child with any stranger. Hence, I stayed back home and decided to take care of the baby.

After a few years, I had another child. I was no doubt a loving mother and completely enjoyed being with both my children and taking care of them. I never missed going to work and did the best for my children. I did everything for them without any help. My husband being busy with his work, could not participate much.

As my children grew, I gradually started to feel bored of doing the same thing for a long time. My elder one is 10 and younger one is almost 7 now. I have reached a stage where I feel trapped in the motherhood now. I can’t go back to work as I have taken a long break of 12 years and it has almost killed my confidence to go back to the corporate environment. Also, due to family issues, I am required to stay home.

Sometimes, I feel that I don’t enjoy my children as much as I did earlier. I am still doing everything for them because I love them and I feel responsible to raise them the best possible way, but somehow the mother in me is not that passionate. I don’t enjoy doing a lot of things with my children the same way as I used to. I sometimes do them because I have to as a part of my duty.

Am I a mother with vanishing love? It hurts me to feel a lesser mother because I know that I love my children.

I am hoping that this is just a phase of my life and I shall get back on track soon.

Sigh!

(Shared my story with mySestina. She is a close friend and suggested me to publish this on her blog, so here I am).

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‘mommy i love you’ my daughter told me

‘mommy i love you’ my daughter told me

this is how the day started today… with the most amazing sweet voice telling me ‘mommy i love you’ and her tiny hands made me a mother’s day card…

happy mother’s day to every mother, daughter and son.

A Beautiful Mind

Do I look presentable? Is my hair tied properly? Wait! did I wear my lip gloss before leaving the house and so on!!

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Honestly, I don’t think about these things anymore. A woman, not bothered about her looks. They don’t matter to me much now. It’s a different phase of my life. I have 2 children to take care of. All that I think of now is getting the kids ready for school, are they eating well, the dates of vaccination, what are they learning at school, what extra curricular activities should I make them join and so on.

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It’s not about myself neglecting me, it’s not about me giving all my time to my children. It is about choosing what I feel is right. In fact, it’s my own choice, I don’t blame anyone for this and although I get tired sometimes, I still enjoy it. I love being with my children and it’s a great feeling to be able to take care of them in every possible way that I can.

I believe, that I am now paying attention to better things in..life, I am paying attention to another growing life, nourishing it with my knowledge, I am paying attention to a broader perspective, things that I feel now are the most important and close to my heart.

As far as my looks are concerned, I guess a I anyway look beautiful with my kids around. I have A Beautiful Mind.