the much awaited doll

 (A POEM ON A TRAGIC TRUE STORY OF DRUNK DRIVING CASE THAT KILLED A MAN IN NEW DELHI)

a young man tired from a long day’s work

walked back home,

stopped by a toy shop, on his lips – a smile

for his daughter waiting for a doll tonight

a much awaited one

he promised to bring it with his next paycheck

he packed the doll in a bag hung on his back

gleaming smile on his face to imagine

a child’s excitement to possess a new doll

 

dreaming his dream he crossed a busy road

started from one end, never reached the other

lifeless body laid on the road

not dreaming, not smiling anymore

 

few teenagers today had their share of a few beers

tinkling of empty bottles played music to them

decided to party, racing in a new Mercedes Benz

alcohol commanded a speed of 140mph

just a blink of an eye, hit someone, a man

with no desire to learn who, they never stopped

never looked back, racing went on

 

little girl sat by the door, looking out waiting

excited to see her father coming back tonight

hiding a doll in his bag somewhere

her wait was extended till endless time

a young man, a father, died on the road

in his arms, holding a precious gift

the much awaited doll

 

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regret

many times, i told him

i was dying from the inside

every day, each moment of my life

the air between us not enough

to let me breathe

my heart felt suffocated

a million times, his hand i tried to reach

he was there sitting by my side

yet no sign of him till far away

my soul neglected bruised

i decided to wait for a little longer

every time i told me

he shall hold me in a little more while

today, i depart to stay in heaven

he is remained with nothing

but regret

with nothing

but to miss me by his side

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goodbye

it was getting burdensome for him

i felt him running away from me

it was tough, i was anxious, in pain

ignored, my messages not being responded

excuses and lies, everyday i faced

and then he simplified things that day

he said goodbye

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tomorrow never comes

today i decide to bring a smile to you

today i decide to fill excitement in you

today i decide to inspire you a little

shall i tell a story, or ask you a riddle

today i decide to read what you write

let’s go to the rooftop, shall we fly a kite

come a little closer, let’s kiss each other

let’s sit together chat for a little while

aren’t we missing each other

aren’t we loosing time

shall we do it all today, not wait for tomorrow

for i have seen, i have learnt

sometimes leaving us puzzled

tomorrow never comes

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i take pride for u raised me right

  i take pride as you raised me right
you were tough you were polite
when I searched for the meaning of life
you gave me the vision to a brighter side
when I lost my courage
you pushed me to fight
in your strong yet loving arms
I could always hide
when nights were long & dark
you held  my light
watched my back till I took my flight

everything is just so special tonight
i am crowned, to reach new heights
thank you DAD for being my guide
a poem of emotions for you i recite
i sure do take pride for you raised me right

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i went ahead…

they told me not to

informed me of the consequences

my well wishers pulled me back desperately

in hope of saving me from what was to come

yet i went ahead as i wanted to rise

instead, i fell in love

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from a Woman to a Mother

it was her, just her …. a woman

made love to a man for she was his wife

started to experience another life inside

her womb was a bit more sensitive now

her belly increased a little every moment

another heart started to beat inside her

she truly became a woman with two hearts

life grew inside each day every moment

one after the other all the senses came to life

inside her womb, the baby started to hear

she even cried at times she smiled

kicked a few goals sucked on her thumb

nine months advanced, it was time for the finale

anxiety & excitement both filled the woman

for the pain so intense, unable to bear

her muscles stretched and loosened with each contraction

o heaven!! come out fast, she told the baby

hours of pushing and screaming and heavy breathing

finally, she could hear her first cry

tears of excitement filled her eyes

even before placenta could relieve her frame

she had forgotten already the excruciating pain

in that moment she felt complete

held the tiny soul in her arms, watched her crying

she offered her breast to the tiny mouth

the baby first struggled then started to suckle

that’s when the woman became a mother

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A Beautiful Mind

Do I look presentable? Is my hair tied properly? Wait! did I wear my lip gloss before leaving the house and so on!!

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Honestly, I don’t think about these things anymore. A woman, not bothered about her looks. They don’t matter to me much now. It’s a different phase of my life. I have 2 children to take care of. All that I think of now is getting the kids ready for school, are they eating well, the dates of vaccination, what are they learning at school, what extra curricular activities should I make them join and so on.

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It’s not about myself neglecting me, it’s not about me giving all my time to my children. It is about choosing what I feel is right. In fact, it’s my own choice, I don’t blame anyone for this and although I get tired sometimes, I still enjoy it. I love being with my children and it’s a great feeling to be able to take care of them in every possible way that I can.

I believe, that I am now paying attention to better things in..life, I am paying attention to another growing life, nourishing it with my knowledge, I am paying attention to a broader perspective, things that I feel now are the most important and close to my heart.

As far as my looks are concerned, I guess a I anyway look beautiful with my kids around. I have A Beautiful Mind.